True evil can be romanticized.
It can be artistically transformed
into a forbidden love,
but I, oh no! I am not buying it.
I've always tried to use my fire
to know the threshold of my pain
and to warm and illuminate my way with its light.
[This is how I have survived.]
The flame has been extinguished,
and now I am left with anguish.
I gave up my skin
I gave up my dreams
I let down my defenses
I let you abuse all of my senses
I cried to the point of mania
I cut my fingers off
I lost touch with hope
I gave up my God.
[This is how I had to survive.]
I became a frail-ish female-ish skeleton
clanking around on insecure and unsteady bones,
longing and searching for where I had misplaced my flesh.
But I cannot forget
tracing the bone of your brow,
your displaced boy-ish smile
The way you used to pet my hair when I rested in your arms,
or the eternal nights we shared in sweat.
For once there was a fire
in innocence, but no!
No longer shall this be.
For it is forbidden love that lights your fire,
and the only thing I have left is a fragile faith.
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